On the run

Sorry for not posting too often. Been a busy bee and my heart just wasn't into writing that much. but now that I have the mood, and the time, why shouldn't I, right?

This week was emotionally stressful. It was too hard to handle. Late nights because of nothing, crying myself to sleep over something small. It must have been PMS cuz I don't have another answer for it.

Drama has a new instructor now. Gloria is so much fun. It has been very wonderful. Really, really very wonderful, actually. :D She's doing physical theatre with us and I really love physical theatre. I might not tell anyone but I really love moves. Such a sucker for dancers. Especially those contemporary or modern dancers. As well as b-boys. (Hah. Now that it is on this blog, it is not quite a secret, it is? But no one reads this old blog anymore anyway)

Well, it is still Raya and today, I still see a lot of them going out walking in those bling bling looking so nice and I am jealous. Really jealous. I have a thing for kurungs, actually. They're all so nice and delicate and fluffy, they make you want to wear them all night and day. (okay, maybe not the songket. They're hot as hell)

I'm a person with a lot of dreams. It doesn't hurt, does it? I just want to try everything and anything that I can have my hand on. It would have been nice to have a lot of money. Anyone wants to sponsor me? My wish right now is to be able to travel. While I am still schooling. Like on a holiday. Backpacking. Oh, the possibilities. :D But there are a lot of responsibilities around here and I have to stay focused on the priority. Being a good girl, here. Teehee.

Anyway, I am thinking of replacing my torch for an apple product. Should I wait for the new one or just settle and be happy with the previous version? I think I should just settle down with the previous version but many said to wait for the newer ones. I have waited for a lot of things in my life. One is going into H&M. (hahahahah. we shall not even go there. menyakitkan hati betul) I should seek The Man's advice. He's keen on me replacing my torch. Maybe he could see I was a bit unhappy with it. I am sorry, love. It was such a great present but I couldn't do much with it.

I NEED TO CUT MY HAIR. Kim and I agreed to wait for two weeks till we cut our hair. I, at least, need to cut (or rather, shave) off my sideburns. That's as far as I would go, maybe.

We got into finals for a fashion competition. We're doing Off Centre for our reflections. There's a drama chalet this Wednesday. I'm going ubin for 4 days the last week of September. My uncle is participating in Expo and I am expected to help in the last weekend of September too. I have yet to buy another pair of very comfortable jeans from Forever 21 (which is really cheap and I hope is still there). I have also yet to buy feather fan and black gloves for my aunt's dinner and dance which she needs by this Friday. I have yet to make consent forms for the chalet. This might look like trouble for me but I'll love the time spent thinking about nothing at the moment. Although I would really love a bubble bath or a luxury sleep.

I just finished reading a book. Which made me realized how fortunate I am in this world. Lucky beings, please realize that you're lucky. I really didn't know what the expression, "when the going gets tough, the tough gets going", mean until I read this book to its end. It is really an amazing book. And the author had really captured my heart. It goes out to Lily and Laurence. It really does. It is so hard to see people who don't deserve to be down in the dumps to be there, down in the dumps. It is heartbreaking but the positivity they have, although little and might dwindle by the time goes by, is really amazing. "The Only Way Is Up" by Carole Matthews. Get it if your spirit need some polishing or you need some convincing. This book will help you. Trust me, it will.

And Hafiz, I love you very very much. We'll be alright at the end of the day. I had a bad dream about us. We were arguing about planning and I was against crossing the bridge when we get there. I was furious. Maybe it is a sign that we start planning? I hate going around living each day as it is. I need to look forward to something at the end of the day. I love you. I wouldn't want to lose you too.