Sometimes, you are always caught in between things. Maybe, of wanting to be happy for the people you love and wishing you are in their shoes at that very moment. It happened to me a lot of times before. I am getting tired of being the other half - that is rotten. Maybe only by a bit but they always want the best. And if my best is not enough for them, what more can I do? Kill myself to perfection? Okay, maybe not. Try harder? Easier said than done, okay?!
You know how a heart aches? Like the wound is stabbed over and over and over again. It hurts really bad and there is nothing, absolutely nothing, you can do to it. When you try to nurse it to health, it will just get wounded again. Call me careless but bits and pieces of my hearts are all over the world now, travelling happily while I am broken and well, out of place. It had been a really difficult journey thus far.
Funny how one say that your fate and destiny are already written down and nothing can change it but they will say, "if i do this maybe..." and hoped that there will be a better outcome. I mean, aren't you supposed to be content in what happened? Even if it is not the best (yet)? But it is really subjective. To what extend will you stop and realise, maybe it is not meant for you because there are other better things out there? Why am I thinking all this?
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